Time for a new entry.
Lot of time is elapsed

now autumn is nearly over and trees lost their beautifull leaves .__.'
But I try to think positive, also if winter is comming and I'm freezing all the time x.x

Last time a friend of me wrote me at msn, that I'm always that depressive if she's writing with me xD
I didn't noticed that but I will try to keep it in mind and to change my behavior. It's true that I have often a bad mood if I'm sitting at the computer 'cause I'm bored, nerved or just frustrated sitting at home ( while monologizing haha xP ), I think I have mood swings <__<'' because at school I get to say I'm nerving and freaky x.x in a positive way XD ... I hope so ... because others laugh and me too.

I try to concentrate at school, but also if I learn a lot I often don't get the results that I expect to get. This is really frustrating but nevertheless I still won't give up ^^'.
I hope winter will be over soon, I'm not looking forward to november especially Christmas.
It was always a stressfull time for me, because of family and they didn't make it easy for me. Also because this year two beloved members won't be there.
This makes me feel sad but I can't change it ^^

The best will be my holidays : D'
really looking forward to them because I have to do a lot and for this I need the free time, for example write my 15 pages skilled work *sigh* x__x'

yes... there's nothing much more to say.
I feel a kind of creativity in myself haha ... but it's hard to live it out in the moment.


I got an idea for a cosplay ''
but I don't know whether I can realize it.
It will be Tooru Kono from princess princess an anime I really love
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